Kemaren akhirnya ke pim lagi... ktemuan ma manda... skalian ktemuan ma wirda... but nyampe br jam tiga... ah coba nomat de... yah udah main semua... ah check email ma frenster aja di bawah... penuh... jalan2 dulu... liat majalah gossip di times... ke warnet lg... msh penuh... gramedia... msh penuh... ke metro (eh ada anak adidas itu...).. msh penuh.. yah tunggu di situ aja de... hmmm... hmmm... hmmm... akhirnya... hua internetnya lama... tp berhasil juga nyampe si frenster... hmm 7 msg, 2 friends req, chocked my self... tristi? Asiah? See people... frenster ada gunanya... this two are my long lost friend, dari jaman susahnya being accepted n live junior high school... gila yg satu udah ngilang sejak kuliah, yang satu ngilang sejak lulus smp....
Anak2 nerds 3A, kangeeen banget... hihi.. kalo inget2 emang geek banget ya kita... but happy with our safety ground (kelas berbakat... hahaha) hey we survived, ampe lulus khan without any violence occurred...
hihi flash back... organizer, foto tempat duduk, our own table, white board br, BSF, rompi, swimming on d floor, st.michael's deo, MDI, Koran dinding, loker, file do it yourself, mie goreng setengah mateng, mkn baso abis olahraga, ganti baju di kelas, nasi babe, jacky, kelas bahasa bu retno, film bodoh anak2 co, our crushes, our conflict, our trip to seaworld... n dufan, n ripleys, believe it or not...
Anak2 nerds 3A, kangeeen banget...
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Sunday, December 12, 2004
So Bali turns out to be...
Great... it's that big achievement... hihi... although it actually as manda planned but that trip turn out to be great..
Well first of all... we pick the wrong hotel.. enough said.. it was like jalan jaksa di Jakarta... wahahaha... but we actually got the beach.. jalannya sempit gelap dan cuma cukup satu orang tp ketemu juga pantai bagus... ga serame kuta... it was pretty spooky.. untung ada si ima, yg penakutnya sama.. but.. ima penghianat.. tak menepati janji... mana ima ama manda tertidur pulas dan gue... well... I almost stayed the whole night..
Akhirnya we decided to move.. ke the oasis.. di bakungsari.. puuuurfect.. deket kemana2, gayanya keren minimalis, ga over budget...
And than... ima got pretty sick... tadinya masih maksa pas nyampe sukowati... abis itu ambruk.. yah udah abis ke kuta square balik de ke hotel, rencananya beli kfc aja yg deket hotel, but jadi bisa jalan2 kan... tryt ketinggalan ma manda n febri yg nyelip ke mini market dulu... biasa yana sok pinter.. jalan aja ampe kfc.. toh diujung kuta square itu kan... aman... kan rame... not.. with all the 'I cant hear u' I survived ampe di kfc, kok belom ada juga tuh anak dua... telfon manda kok mailbox... maybe there something wrong in my sim card... hmmm... cari wartel... yah sang wartel depan belakang ama tempat bikin tattoo... ga papa.. I survived.. tp ttp mailbox.. so I decided to go back to kfc... lalu ada pria gimbal gondrong dan temannya gimbal pendek... neng.. smoke smoke.. weed weed... hmmm... I think I'll just get back... and laugh about my self...
Hari ketiga... swimming day... hihi.. pagi2.. ma manda ama febri, brenang juga kita dgn pakaian tennis kita bwahahaha.... engga man punya lo engga.... but wish kita beli disana aja.. so many of them.. bali is splurging your eyes with roxy, billabong, rip curl.. nd others... siangnya.. jalan de ama manda n febri (cical jagain ima, sakit... jd kita cari makan) jalan aja tiba2 udah nyampe hard rock hotel... jalan lagi udah pantai kuta... huaaaa... pantai... indahnyaaaa... panasnya.. ayo kita masuk gift shopnya hard rock café aja... ah AC.. jalan lagiii.. lucu ya kuta begini sekarang.. (terakhir smp sih).. sepanjang pantai ada coffee shop.. even ada took replay n furla.. hmmn.. akhirnya kita mkn di McD w kuta beach view... gorjess.. so many Australian... malah kayanya mereka lbh ngerasa Bali itu theirs than ours... ga tahannya Bali terik nya... u know what would b great rite now.. iced cappuccino.. circle K tryt punya coffee to go... yummy.. masing2 megang minuman ready to go again guys... eh ada taxi... balik naek taxi aja yuk... hihi.....
Sorenya kita ngotot.... waterboom... nyampe sana tinggal satu setengah jam lagi... bodo amat... speed up... speed up... such a chaos start.. mana ternyata salah milih loker... akhirnya bedua manda nahan isinya... febri tutup pintunya... mungkin karena waktunya dikit, jadi nekat di coba semuanya... engga d... not that crazy enough to try smash down...
Karena ima sakit kita udah rela ga kemana2 lagi... tinggal ke jimbaran makan malem... tryt tour guidenya baek... besoknya udah direncanain ke GWK, Dreamland (dream islandnya ima) ama, Nusa Dua (yg ini ga kekejar), yah since kita juga berangkat jam 11 udah cukup lah ya.. n back to airport... in the plane... bye Bali...
Saturday, November 20, 2004
left behind
Ketemuan ama Santi, Faney, n fussy...
Such along time... ga nyangka... bisa juga... yah biasa lah as they were... waktu SMA... yg bikin nyesel knapa ga ketularan mereka gitu biar cantikan dikit... kan skrg jadinya muka udah biasa kena bedak hihi..
Talking to them... ga nyangka... udah pada mateng banget soal kerjaan.. kok gw belom ya... so clueless about the world, n my work... but come to think of it.. iyalah yan... atleast beda setaun pengalaman kerja ama mereka... but I'm so proud they've come to be gorgeous girls... ups women... with gorgeous minds... yah tinggal pada married de... knapa ya rasanya masih jauh banget bagi gw...
Such along time... ga nyangka... bisa juga... yah biasa lah as they were... waktu SMA... yg bikin nyesel knapa ga ketularan mereka gitu biar cantikan dikit... kan skrg jadinya muka udah biasa kena bedak hihi..
Talking to them... ga nyangka... udah pada mateng banget soal kerjaan.. kok gw belom ya... so clueless about the world, n my work... but come to think of it.. iyalah yan... atleast beda setaun pengalaman kerja ama mereka... but I'm so proud they've come to be gorgeous girls... ups women... with gorgeous minds... yah tinggal pada married de... knapa ya rasanya masih jauh banget bagi gw...
Thursday, November 11, 2004
goody bag
wahahahaha... hihihihihi... (dinyanyikan dengan lagu sepatu kaca)...
akhirnya tas kuw jadi...
after a long wait of one month.. it's finally here..
glad i was so cerewet about it
plan a and plan b
this plan A and plan B, maunya sih persis anya.. hihi... plagiat
storyboard
this is the story board.. Manda see.. i could be as freak as u are
dan hasilnya... yah in the middle of plan A n plan B, i couldn't be more happier than if it was the real one.
btw, everyone, that's me..
akhirnya tas kuw jadi...
after a long wait of one month.. it's finally here..
glad i was so cerewet about it
plan a and plan b
this plan A and plan B, maunya sih persis anya.. hihi... plagiat
storyboard
this is the story board.. Manda see.. i could be as freak as u are
dan hasilnya... yah in the middle of plan A n plan B, i couldn't be more happier than if it was the real one.
btw, everyone, that's me..
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
sorry
got this from manda yesterday...
http://www.sorryeverybody.com/gallery/1/
lucu juga... kapan ya orang indo bisa kaya gini, mungkin setelah ga kepingin punya presiden ganteng.
http://www.sorryeverybody.com/gallery/1/
lucu juga... kapan ya orang indo bisa kaya gini, mungkin setelah ga kepingin punya presiden ganteng.
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
little reunion
little reunion yesterday... ktemu tobey, mira sama imel... si imel mulai di mandiri downstairs.. hihi.. kocak juga ya, ngebayangin udah pada kerja... it's funny, when u know someone dari kecil (gmn nih bahasanya) lo akan terus ngeliat mereka just as dulu lo pertama kali kenal ama dia.. just like our parents sees us..
so that's how i see imel with her blazer and corporate skirt... ga pantes mel.. hahaha... sama aja sih ama gw, diketawain juga pake coat kotak2 itu... sebetulnya masih pingin ngobrol byk ama tuh anak.. but dia juga ga enak ama supervisornya, pada belom istirahat..
pas pulang pinginnya ketemuan sih tapi udah pulang duluan, padahal janjian ama si manda, mau nonton ama febri... mau ikut tp ternyata filmnya terlalu malem.
yah akhirnya kita makan, since febri ga mood ama tempat regular kita makan so we decided to try something else.. pizza hut it is.
full stomach.. tired mouth.. and sleepy head, we stepped home... what? it's 10 o'clock already... humh tau gini nonton aja..
so that's how i see imel with her blazer and corporate skirt... ga pantes mel.. hahaha... sama aja sih ama gw, diketawain juga pake coat kotak2 itu... sebetulnya masih pingin ngobrol byk ama tuh anak.. but dia juga ga enak ama supervisornya, pada belom istirahat..
pas pulang pinginnya ketemuan sih tapi udah pulang duluan, padahal janjian ama si manda, mau nonton ama febri... mau ikut tp ternyata filmnya terlalu malem.
yah akhirnya kita makan, since febri ga mood ama tempat regular kita makan so we decided to try something else.. pizza hut it is.
full stomach.. tired mouth.. and sleepy head, we stepped home... what? it's 10 o'clock already... humh tau gini nonton aja..
Monday, November 08, 2004
hectic shopping day
Yesterday was hectic... tadinya mau pergi bedua monik, dengan pa' supir ais... but tryt ade gue yg satu itu mengingkari janjinya, dia ga jadi pulang pagi, kalap tidur dirumah temennya dan baru bangun jam 12… too late.. my mom already offered to drive us.... this means, dinta would come along and my dad would come along... and I know what kind of trip this is... if I we did go on with my dad... (it sounds that bad isn’t it)... no offense but..
So as planned we drive through Plaza Senayan, but with an agreement that we would separate... sorry mommy.. we'd have to leave u with that situation, u've been there 25 year right? (",)
So me and monik speed up... what da? There goes my mood to shop... so many people, so crowded... apalagi di point break... lagian ngapain sih orang mau lebaran malah beli baju pantai... ga diskon juga gitu, mahal2 lagi... ampe 600 rb, cuma dapet kaos tiga potong kali, but since I... had a real deal there... (maksudnya emang ada kepentingan, buat ke pantai... hei jgn2 mereka juga lagi).. eniwei I had to jump myself in there...
n I got it... my swimsuit top soulmate... now I have to find the perfect flip flops.. it just never stop isn't it....
So as planned we drive through Plaza Senayan, but with an agreement that we would separate... sorry mommy.. we'd have to leave u with that situation, u've been there 25 year right? (",)
So me and monik speed up... what da? There goes my mood to shop... so many people, so crowded... apalagi di point break... lagian ngapain sih orang mau lebaran malah beli baju pantai... ga diskon juga gitu, mahal2 lagi... ampe 600 rb, cuma dapet kaos tiga potong kali, but since I... had a real deal there... (maksudnya emang ada kepentingan, buat ke pantai... hei jgn2 mereka juga lagi).. eniwei I had to jump myself in there...
n I got it... my swimsuit top soulmate... now I have to find the perfect flip flops.. it just never stop isn't it....
silver celebration
Friday was my parents silver wedding anniversary... so we went out, well.. they went out, I just meet them at american grill, right down my office... so we all sat down at the table since there's the six of us, we sat at the table with six chairs. Not knowing that's a non smoking area... atleast it's near the salad bar... ;9
As we all know it's big deal for my dad, since the five of us are non smokers... usually.. kita ngalah.. but not today... hihi… memanfaatkan event… masa ga mau ngalah ama anak2nya... yah dia ga ngotot lagi sih... just ngedumel keluar... ngerokok diluar..
Abis makan appetizer... minuman nyampe.. but kok kurang satu, jadi pas dia balik dia ngomel.. gimana sih kok minum papa ga ada, pdhl kayanya dia lupa mesen... makanan nyampe... (tarik napas dalam2 semua, mudah2an ga ada yg salah)... sepanjang pengeliatan sih ga ada... start chowing everyone... mncckkk.. mcckkkk..(oo..) we know what this means.. it's going to be a long supper... at the middle of it, my mom just can't stop smiling n at the end she laugh, we all know what that was... I just could help is to ask… mama lagi ngetawain mama sendiri? ato mama lagi ngetawain mama diketawain 4JJ... we all just nod and smile... we understood each ather... except for the one man busy with his plate...
still can't help it to love u both... happy anniversary...
As we all know it's big deal for my dad, since the five of us are non smokers... usually.. kita ngalah.. but not today... hihi… memanfaatkan event… masa ga mau ngalah ama anak2nya... yah dia ga ngotot lagi sih... just ngedumel keluar... ngerokok diluar..
Abis makan appetizer... minuman nyampe.. but kok kurang satu, jadi pas dia balik dia ngomel.. gimana sih kok minum papa ga ada, pdhl kayanya dia lupa mesen... makanan nyampe... (tarik napas dalam2 semua, mudah2an ga ada yg salah)... sepanjang pengeliatan sih ga ada... start chowing everyone... mncckkk.. mcckkkk..(oo..) we know what this means.. it's going to be a long supper... at the middle of it, my mom just can't stop smiling n at the end she laugh, we all know what that was... I just could help is to ask… mama lagi ngetawain mama sendiri? ato mama lagi ngetawain mama diketawain 4JJ... we all just nod and smile... we understood each ather... except for the one man busy with his plate...
still can't help it to love u both... happy anniversary...
hurt in the hips
argh.... i got my friendly friend today... why didn't this happened last week, than i could've had a shopping trip to mangga dua... and this may means, it will accompanied me on the trip. huaaaa... okay wishful thinking...
Thursday, November 04, 2004
guilt
...u're not a failure until u start blaming everybody else... Tadi pagi padahal baru gw baca itu disampul kaset usher..
and that’s exactly what I did setelah diajak ngomong mba karin.. although deep down I know it’s my fault, I just can’t help it. I just don’t wanna feel hurt. So I did it, I start blaming…
the obvious thing is.. I feel relieve, but it started to grow towards guilt. I got slap in the face, dibilang labil, ga tegas… n dicontohin orang yg ga bisa dipegang omongannya. and I know that’s exactly my gesture was telling, unconfident person.
And as usual brief, mba karin bilang ini buat kamu kedepannya, ini yang harus kamu tau kalo mau jadi leader yang kuat.. will I be? I don’t know.. pray for me..
and that’s exactly what I did setelah diajak ngomong mba karin.. although deep down I know it’s my fault, I just can’t help it. I just don’t wanna feel hurt. So I did it, I start blaming…
the obvious thing is.. I feel relieve, but it started to grow towards guilt. I got slap in the face, dibilang labil, ga tegas… n dicontohin orang yg ga bisa dipegang omongannya. and I know that’s exactly my gesture was telling, unconfident person.
And as usual brief, mba karin bilang ini buat kamu kedepannya, ini yang harus kamu tau kalo mau jadi leader yang kuat.. will I be? I don’t know.. pray for me..
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
tankini?bikini?..
i'm still trying to find the perfect swimwear...kan mau ke bali..ciee...
so me and manda is constantly go in and out of sports n lingerie dept. cant find the one i want, except that i can't get my mind out of that, brown bikini at point break... or that white one with boycut pants. n manda masih berusaha meracuni gw dengan website2 swimware...here's my top candidate...
so me and manda is constantly go in and out of sports n lingerie dept. cant find the one i want, except that i can't get my mind out of that, brown bikini at point break... or that white one with boycut pants. n manda masih berusaha meracuni gw dengan website2 swimware...here's my top candidate...
..decision..
i've decide it... i even told people.. although not the person i should but atleast to wirda i did... it's a scary part for me although its relieving..
i thought i'm gonna get some peoples dissapointment, but i don't think so.. they're actually happy with my decision. very supporting. maybe the one i was so scared about telling is myself, am i ready to tell my self the insecurity.. well.. see how this goes... i'm still getting ready to tell mba karin...
pray for me..
i thought i'm gonna get some peoples dissapointment, but i don't think so.. they're actually happy with my decision. very supporting. maybe the one i was so scared about telling is myself, am i ready to tell my self the insecurity.. well.. see how this goes... i'm still getting ready to tell mba karin...
pray for me..
Monday, November 01, 2004
hipe
hipe...hipe...i'm so hipe...oh shut up..i earned this... hihihi... akhirnya berhasil juga ngumpulin anak2...thanks dod!!..eventhough not completly success but fair enough.
walau yg puasa cuma bareng ninoe, kiki, deva, yosa, sakur puasa ga ya?... but everyone came, that includes doddy, arie, junita, anggie, adenya anggie..angga, allan temennya junita, ronny, dan cewenya atid.. cant belive it..
the big minus is oelil, aya, ika, and dimas, cant make it... although kita akhirnya mampir ke rumah aya... biasa, mbah dukun tarot bertindak... so glad aya ga marah... she doesn't like to be left out, i know..maaf ya...tp gw juga ga bisa jemput..
padahal pulang dari aya juga baru jam stgh sebelas.. but i think we've got the highest high...
walau yg puasa cuma bareng ninoe, kiki, deva, yosa, sakur puasa ga ya?... but everyone came, that includes doddy, arie, junita, anggie, adenya anggie..angga, allan temennya junita, ronny, dan cewenya atid.. cant belive it..
the big minus is oelil, aya, ika, and dimas, cant make it... although kita akhirnya mampir ke rumah aya... biasa, mbah dukun tarot bertindak... so glad aya ga marah... she doesn't like to be left out, i know..maaf ya...tp gw juga ga bisa jemput..
padahal pulang dari aya juga baru jam stgh sebelas.. but i think we've got the highest high...
Thursday, October 28, 2004
relationship smeelationship
di salah satu episode ajang ajeng yg di MTV (kalo ga salah waktu final), salah satu kontestan, Ditha, ditanya...kamu akan pilih orang yang cinta mati sama kamu atau orang yg memberikan kamu kemapanan.. dan jawaban dia.. kalo orang ini cinta sama saya, dia akan memberikan saya kemapanan. smart answer...
kemaren faney telfon, such along time i didn't hear from her... since i got guilty all over my face. well, ternyata dia ga mikir gitu... soalnya gw ngerasa banget, waktu itu, dia ga enak cerita tentang dibalik lagi ama cowonya.. dan gw malah ngerasa gw manas2in dia... pasti nyokapnya marah kalo tau apa yg udah gw omongin ke faney. but she's my bestfriend, n i want the best for her, bukan cinta mati tanpa usaha, tapi untuk orang se-fragile faney, dia butuh pegangan.
if it takes to tell the truth about how i fell, n she'll hate me for that.. it's okay.
hopefully for me, i got sms dari dia sebelum puasa, about her latest news, dan kemaren dia curhat sama gw ttg semua... i'm all ears fan. it is hard to get out of a long relationship n start a new one, without your family involved. but i just don't get, knapa mereka semua ga bisa be happy for her, kan semua fakta udah jelas...
apasih yg mereka harapin dari seorang manusia.. apalagi manusia yg ga bisa berusaha sendiri buat dirinya.. apalagi buat orang lain.. maybe it's too much story to be burn n closed down, lama2 kan keliatan juga setiap orang punya prioritas beda.. n i dont think their going the same way...
eniwei marriege is not the end of a relationship, it's the beginning.. and i think u should begin with the right person... n the right mind.. not because it's been along therm relationship.
kemaren faney telfon, such along time i didn't hear from her... since i got guilty all over my face. well, ternyata dia ga mikir gitu... soalnya gw ngerasa banget, waktu itu, dia ga enak cerita tentang dibalik lagi ama cowonya.. dan gw malah ngerasa gw manas2in dia... pasti nyokapnya marah kalo tau apa yg udah gw omongin ke faney. but she's my bestfriend, n i want the best for her, bukan cinta mati tanpa usaha, tapi untuk orang se-fragile faney, dia butuh pegangan.
if it takes to tell the truth about how i fell, n she'll hate me for that.. it's okay.
hopefully for me, i got sms dari dia sebelum puasa, about her latest news, dan kemaren dia curhat sama gw ttg semua... i'm all ears fan. it is hard to get out of a long relationship n start a new one, without your family involved. but i just don't get, knapa mereka semua ga bisa be happy for her, kan semua fakta udah jelas...
apasih yg mereka harapin dari seorang manusia.. apalagi manusia yg ga bisa berusaha sendiri buat dirinya.. apalagi buat orang lain.. maybe it's too much story to be burn n closed down, lama2 kan keliatan juga setiap orang punya prioritas beda.. n i dont think their going the same way...
eniwei marriege is not the end of a relationship, it's the beginning.. and i think u should begin with the right person... n the right mind.. not because it's been along therm relationship.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
3 messages
ga ngerti.. ga ngerti... ga ngerti... gimana sih ngatur blog2 ini... susyah sekali... orang kok pada bisa sih... cuma mau simpel aja.. biar ga bolong... biar links nya bisa, punya tag board... hiks...
hari ini dapet beberapa messages di frenster, satu menggembirakan, satu aneh, satu lagi aneh juga...
satu dari ciciet, senangnya ngedenger someone (close to me) masih seneng ngomongin ttg advertising... it's like i'm walking alone in this goal i want, knapa sih semua pada give up begitu... maybe karena kita trisakti ya...kayanya ga ada harapan ke advertising, mungkin pada ngerasa kalah aja ama anak2 laen.
u make me feel like i'm the last survival... great romantic... u stop believing and the world stop spinning round...
bener ga ya teks nya... sebenernya ini lagunya tunde baiyewu... tapi berhubung nge-browse belom dapet teksnya..jadi ngarang de...
yah pokonya lagu itu lagi explain what i'm feeling right now... padahal pas baca di websitenya... tryt ttg cinta juga.. (kok ga ada hubungannya).
yang dua lagi (frenster) perlu dibahas ya?...
hari ini dapet beberapa messages di frenster, satu menggembirakan, satu aneh, satu lagi aneh juga...
satu dari ciciet, senangnya ngedenger someone (close to me) masih seneng ngomongin ttg advertising... it's like i'm walking alone in this goal i want, knapa sih semua pada give up begitu... maybe karena kita trisakti ya...kayanya ga ada harapan ke advertising, mungkin pada ngerasa kalah aja ama anak2 laen.
u make me feel like i'm the last survival... great romantic... u stop believing and the world stop spinning round...
bener ga ya teks nya... sebenernya ini lagunya tunde baiyewu... tapi berhubung nge-browse belom dapet teksnya..jadi ngarang de...
yah pokonya lagu itu lagi explain what i'm feeling right now... padahal pas baca di websitenya... tryt ttg cinta juga.. (kok ga ada hubungannya).
yang dua lagi (frenster) perlu dibahas ya?...
Monday, October 25, 2004
be heard?
uhuk..uhuk... cie batuk...
tangan gw dingin banget nih, rasanya sweater kurang tebel nih, kurang cukup menghadang dinginnya AC kantor. belom mulai-mulai kerja juga yan, iya iya bentar... up date doang minggu kemaren... yg sebenernya ga terjadi apa-apa.
am i that unmeaning to them?... ok yan, back to that point again... i thought u weren't gonna talk about it.
sometimes i feel that i dont have a partner, sometimes i feel like i'm my only friend...ayo nyanyi...
ya udah lah udah lewat, i always could and would be a listener... just don't have the time to talk... or be heard... yah ga papa lah, kan punya blog.. but i need a feedback.. manusia kan mahluk sosial... need each other..
kaya ga ada yg compatible buat diajak ngomong, satu pikiran lah... yah just gave up my hope aja...monik malah bilangnya.. kakak pingin punya cowo ya... ugh ga ngerti banget sih...
tangan gw dingin banget nih, rasanya sweater kurang tebel nih, kurang cukup menghadang dinginnya AC kantor. belom mulai-mulai kerja juga yan, iya iya bentar... up date doang minggu kemaren... yg sebenernya ga terjadi apa-apa.
am i that unmeaning to them?... ok yan, back to that point again... i thought u weren't gonna talk about it.
sometimes i feel that i dont have a partner, sometimes i feel like i'm my only friend...ayo nyanyi...
ya udah lah udah lewat, i always could and would be a listener... just don't have the time to talk... or be heard... yah ga papa lah, kan punya blog.. but i need a feedback.. manusia kan mahluk sosial... need each other..
kaya ga ada yg compatible buat diajak ngomong, satu pikiran lah... yah just gave up my hope aja...monik malah bilangnya.. kakak pingin punya cowo ya... ugh ga ngerti banget sih...
Saturday, October 23, 2004
it's one of those saturday...
it's one of those saturday...
the ones that i had to go to work, with nobody else in the room, nobody has arrived yet, and all alone in the graphic room. yah... maen fenster ama nulis blog de... kan ga sempet juga sih tiap hari... nothing much to say but just late happenings like...
dateng ke fashion week mercedes, dan bertemu Sari Nila (my idol), who was sitting right infront of me... i dont care if anyones watching... it's my one moment in time... if i didn't grab it... i wouldn't have anymore chances... so i did.. don't ask me what i did... i just did it.
then, dinta had a tumor, trus mesti operasi, apa ya maksud tuhan sama dia dan keluarga gw, ais abis kecelakaan sekarang dia yg baru kelas 5 SD, mesti operasi, ngangkat tumornya... nyokap bilang, pas ais kecelakaan dia kok lebih gampang berserah diri dan jadi tau what to do tanpa panik, pas masalah ini kok malah susah to grab something out of if and make plans... akhirnya setelah beberapa hari diputusin untuk operasi, jadi check up semua dulu, minum obatnya yg dikasih, n cool down n re think... u know what happened, pas lagi nunggu dokter anestesinya diperiksa lagi ama dokter bedahnya.. and it's gone, the lump got smaller... trus dokternya bilang... wah kalo gini ga usah dioperasi ya, dinta minum obatnya aja... what?...
pas lagi hari operasi, gw lagi supervisi foto.. trus dia sms gw..
dinta : kakak aku ga jadi operasi dong...
me : berarti dinta banyak yg doain
dinta : ya iya dong..
then, that lebaran n xmas hectic... belom lagi pesenan om sule' hua... ancur ancur de nih badan... udah bindeng dan tangan gw dingin bgt seharian... pasti kalo ga istirahat jadi flu berat.. n i can't have those by this time... what flu... is there any word that defined as flu... nope never heard of it...
the ones that i had to go to work, with nobody else in the room, nobody has arrived yet, and all alone in the graphic room. yah... maen fenster ama nulis blog de... kan ga sempet juga sih tiap hari... nothing much to say but just late happenings like...
dateng ke fashion week mercedes, dan bertemu Sari Nila (my idol), who was sitting right infront of me... i dont care if anyones watching... it's my one moment in time... if i didn't grab it... i wouldn't have anymore chances... so i did.. don't ask me what i did... i just did it.
then, dinta had a tumor, trus mesti operasi, apa ya maksud tuhan sama dia dan keluarga gw, ais abis kecelakaan sekarang dia yg baru kelas 5 SD, mesti operasi, ngangkat tumornya... nyokap bilang, pas ais kecelakaan dia kok lebih gampang berserah diri dan jadi tau what to do tanpa panik, pas masalah ini kok malah susah to grab something out of if and make plans... akhirnya setelah beberapa hari diputusin untuk operasi, jadi check up semua dulu, minum obatnya yg dikasih, n cool down n re think... u know what happened, pas lagi nunggu dokter anestesinya diperiksa lagi ama dokter bedahnya.. and it's gone, the lump got smaller... trus dokternya bilang... wah kalo gini ga usah dioperasi ya, dinta minum obatnya aja... what?...
pas lagi hari operasi, gw lagi supervisi foto.. trus dia sms gw..
dinta : kakak aku ga jadi operasi dong...
me : berarti dinta banyak yg doain
dinta : ya iya dong..
then, that lebaran n xmas hectic... belom lagi pesenan om sule' hua... ancur ancur de nih badan... udah bindeng dan tangan gw dingin bgt seharian... pasti kalo ga istirahat jadi flu berat.. n i can't have those by this time... what flu... is there any word that defined as flu... nope never heard of it...
Monday, October 04, 2004
when I die
When I die, I want to be
A child in Heaven.
I want to be
A ten-year-old cherub.
I want to be
A hero in Heaven,
And a peacemaker,
Just like my goal on Earth.
I will ask God if I can
Help the people in Purgatory.
I will help them think,
About their life,
And their spirits,
About their future.
I will help them
Hear their Heartsongs again,
So they can finally
See the face of God,
So soon.
When I die,
I want to be,
Just like I want to be
Here in Earth.
November 1999
© Matthew Joseph Thaddeus Stepanek
A child in Heaven.
I want to be
A ten-year-old cherub.
I want to be
A hero in Heaven,
And a peacemaker,
Just like my goal on Earth.
I will ask God if I can
Help the people in Purgatory.
I will help them think,
About their life,
And their spirits,
About their future.
I will help them
Hear their Heartsongs again,
So they can finally
See the face of God,
So soon.
When I die,
I want to be,
Just like I want to be
Here in Earth.
November 1999
© Matthew Joseph Thaddeus Stepanek
FOR OUR WORLD
We need to stop.
Just stop.
Stop for a moment…
Before anybody
Says or does anything
That may hurt anyone else.
We need to be silent.
Just silent.
Silent for a moment…
Before we forever lose
The blessing of songs
That grow in our hearts.
We need to notice.
Just notice.
Notice for a moment…
Before the future slips away
Into ashes and dust of humility.
Stop, be silent, and notice…
In so many ways, we are the same.
Our differences are unique treasures.
We have, we are, a mosaic of gifts
To nurture, to offer, to accept.
We need to be.
Just be.
Be for a moment…
Kind and gentle, innocent and trusting,
Like children and lambs,
Never judging or vengeful
Like the judging and vengeful.
And now, let us pray,
Differently, yet together,
Before there is no earth, no life,
No chance for peace.
September 12, 2001
© Matthew Joseph Thaddeus Stepanek
Just stop.
Stop for a moment…
Before anybody
Says or does anything
That may hurt anyone else.
We need to be silent.
Just silent.
Silent for a moment…
Before we forever lose
The blessing of songs
That grow in our hearts.
We need to notice.
Just notice.
Notice for a moment…
Before the future slips away
Into ashes and dust of humility.
Stop, be silent, and notice…
In so many ways, we are the same.
Our differences are unique treasures.
We have, we are, a mosaic of gifts
To nurture, to offer, to accept.
We need to be.
Just be.
Be for a moment…
Kind and gentle, innocent and trusting,
Like children and lambs,
Never judging or vengeful
Like the judging and vengeful.
And now, let us pray,
Differently, yet together,
Before there is no earth, no life,
No chance for peace.
September 12, 2001
© Matthew Joseph Thaddeus Stepanek
mattie's memoriam
pernah lagi nonton oprah, ada anak extraordinary yg cerita dia nulis buku, namanya mattie stefanek, seluruh badannya dipenuhin selang2 bahkan satu nembus lehernya dan dia masih semangat cerita ttg world peace and love.. i got interested, n watch the whole show. malah jadi sering bahkan bukan cuma di oprah... di larry king live juga ada. trus ada kesempatan nitip buku diluar, i got two books of his. terakhir ngeliat dia diwawancara oprah, lagi keputus2 nafasnya. bahkan pd satu show, oprah minta semua take a moment untuk doain sahabat kecilnya, mattie.. lama2 lupa aja soal mattie, except bukunya just hanging there in my bookself. trus sebulan lalu monik nanya, eh mattie stepanek apa kabar ya?.. kakak cari ka, browse aja... dan lupa, baru inget sekarang...lagi ga byk kerjaan. and this is what i found...
Mattie Stepanek died at Children's National Medical Center in Washington D.C. on Tuesday, June 22, according to a statement from the hospital. He had been hospitalized since early March for complications related to the disease that weakened most of his body's major functions. Mattie was 13 and is survived by his mom Jeni.
Mattie J.T. Stepanek is a 13-year-old young man who was born with a rare neuromuscular disease called dysautonomic mitochondrial myopathy. His disease is one of the 43 types of diseases being researched by the Muscular Dystrophy Association.
Mattie has also shared his messages of hope and peace on many television programs. He has been on the Oprah Winfrey Show, Larry King Live, Good Morning America, Primetime, The Today Show, and many other programs many times. Every year, he also helps with the Jerry Lewis Labor Day Telethon. In 2002, he drove cross country with his mom, and friends, Sandy and Chris, to be in Los Angeles for the Telethon.
He loved getting to see his country coast to coast from the van. In 2003, he was unable to travel because of a decline in his health, so he enjoyed co-hosting all 21 hours of the local Baltimore, MD station telethon.
Mattie feels very lucky to have met many wonderful people during his journey through life. He has become close friends with lots of great people, including Jimmy Carter, Oprah Winfrey, Larry King, Christopher Cross, Lance Bass, and Billy Gilman. During 2003, Mattie and Billy Gilman collaborated on a CD project, Music Through Heartsongs. On the CD, Billy sings 12 of Mattie's poems that have been put to various styles of music, including Celtic, soft rock, Hawaiian, country, jazz, and pop-Christian style. One of his favorite tracks, I AM/Shades of Life, was made into a music video, where Mattie has a cameo.
Mattie also feels very blessed just to be alive at age 13. Children born with his disease do not usually live very long. Mattie knows that each day is a gift, and he makes the most of it. He says he gets his strength from God and his mom, and also from the people that become part of his circle of life. "People tell me I inspire them. And that inspires me. It's a beautiful circle, and we all go around together, with and for each other. What a gift," says Mattie.
Mattie Stepanek died at Children's National Medical Center in Washington D.C. on Tuesday, June 22, according to a statement from the hospital. He had been hospitalized since early March for complications related to the disease that weakened most of his body's major functions. Mattie was 13 and is survived by his mom Jeni.
Mattie J.T. Stepanek is a 13-year-old young man who was born with a rare neuromuscular disease called dysautonomic mitochondrial myopathy. His disease is one of the 43 types of diseases being researched by the Muscular Dystrophy Association.
Mattie has also shared his messages of hope and peace on many television programs. He has been on the Oprah Winfrey Show, Larry King Live, Good Morning America, Primetime, The Today Show, and many other programs many times. Every year, he also helps with the Jerry Lewis Labor Day Telethon. In 2002, he drove cross country with his mom, and friends, Sandy and Chris, to be in Los Angeles for the Telethon.
He loved getting to see his country coast to coast from the van. In 2003, he was unable to travel because of a decline in his health, so he enjoyed co-hosting all 21 hours of the local Baltimore, MD station telethon.
Mattie feels very lucky to have met many wonderful people during his journey through life. He has become close friends with lots of great people, including Jimmy Carter, Oprah Winfrey, Larry King, Christopher Cross, Lance Bass, and Billy Gilman. During 2003, Mattie and Billy Gilman collaborated on a CD project, Music Through Heartsongs. On the CD, Billy sings 12 of Mattie's poems that have been put to various styles of music, including Celtic, soft rock, Hawaiian, country, jazz, and pop-Christian style. One of his favorite tracks, I AM/Shades of Life, was made into a music video, where Mattie has a cameo.
Mattie also feels very blessed just to be alive at age 13. Children born with his disease do not usually live very long. Mattie knows that each day is a gift, and he makes the most of it. He says he gets his strength from God and his mom, and also from the people that become part of his circle of life. "People tell me I inspire them. And that inspires me. It's a beautiful circle, and we all go around together, with and for each other. What a gift," says Mattie.
Friday, October 01, 2004
little things..
happy banget nih kayanya si ais, yeah... i'm glad too, atleast one of us in the family that have guts to tell someone they like, the truth... mudah2an aja yg dia hope itu dibuka jalannya... yah udah kliatan sih kayanya responnya baik, never seen him that happy. the thing about my brother is, he never let his real feeling out, jadi pada baru2 ini dia suka ama cw dan suka curhat ke gue, is a BIG thumbs up from me. butuh ditabrak ama orang mabok, terbaring di rumah sakit, ampe mukanya remuk, baru dia yakin suka sama ini cewe, ironisnya ni cewe mau pergi, and if the plan doesn't goes well, it would be for good. jadi dia panik, hahha... it's okay is, loosing someone makes u human.
hmmm...start over?
start new writings... hihi ... kayanya tersendat-sendat gini nih ngisi blognya, nothing much, just wanna write something everyday about me..
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